prelude

i no longer take in my surroundings. i have become a shell. not a real person, just a shell. i know longer pay any attention to life, well, this life at least. i really do not care. i am numb...watching with awaken eyes...but robotic. i have always wrote about occurences in my life, i am very acclimate to notice things. i cant help it. the truth is, what i just wrote, thats not true. because i have a voracity for life, i have been turned into a pariah. heh!! doesnt make sense...but, we'll see!